Black_Studio

2010-03-29T10:14:00.004+08:00

I thought its suppose to be 只要她开心就好?

atleast for me is 只要my boyfriend开心就好.

If I'm being so nice, why cant he say 只要慧敏开心就好?!

even for the thing i hated most (clubbing), I gave in and said "the next time u go, I wont feel a thing" and I mean it! even if he chose not to believe, I know I mean what I said.
I gave in because I know I shouldnt be so selfish
I gave in because I know he would be happier if he goes
I gave in simply because I want him to be happy, to have a carefree relationship with me

But obviously, its not the other way round
He doesnt care if I will like it or not
He doesnt care if I have to force myself to do things that I dont like
as long as he is happy, he is happy.
u get me?

Why cant I dress the way I like when she can dress lidat

and still be loved by million.

Cause people just love lady gaga!
even if she fart, people think its cool.
I believe her fans would supported her in whatever decision she made

and all I'm requesting, is for my boyfriend, the guy who had chosen me to be his one,
to accept me for who I am
to support me
to respect my decision
not to change me

trying changing lady gaga into taylor swift
whats the point?
just go for taylor swift
u get my point?

I'm sure there will be people out there who say "yucks! lady gaga is gross. she tried too hard"
but heck these people.
there will be others who appreciate her.

the same goes for me
if today u tell me "I dont like the wear u dress, sit, talks, eats, sleeps, jumps, cycles, laugh, cry..."
NEVER MIND!
I'm sure there will be people out there who says "I just love YOU"

let me repeat this again
I want a boyfriend who can accept me as me
me as Lin Hui Min
If u say "I still love the old u" well, go find the "old me"
I am who I am today
U should love ME no matter how much I change cos its ME
people love lady gaga no matter what hairstyle she carries, no matter what outfit she wears
cos at the end of the day, she is still lady gaga
u get it?
no matter what hairstyle I carries today, no matter what I wear, I AM STILL ME, LIN HUI MIN
didnt u love LIN HUI MIN?
I'M STILL LIN HUI MIN!!
u get it??????

YOU changed too.
but I accepted u for who u are
I accepted the changed u

U dont go clubbing in the past
U dont always talk about going clubbinh in the past
U dont wear a tshirt underneath a shirt in the past
U would clean the chair for me before I sit down in the past
U would help me carry my stuff in the past
U would ask me to pass u the bottle after I'm done in the past (now u think I should take the cap from me and carry the bottle. like HUH?)

yes, everyone change
but at the end of the day, we learn to adapt
some who cant adapt, might choose the simple way, of forcing others to change, according to his preference
this is no good.

I am not angry, not upset, not frustrated
I am dishearted, heartbroken, speechless

2010-03-28T09:32:00.002+08:00

Imagine a man sitting down with a little angel and demon flooting at either of his sides. He stared at them, looking real troubled and confused. Not knowing which side of rules to follow.
Does this sound familiar to u?
well, for me, it sure does.
In particularly, yesterday. (so maybe every saturday)

I knew I was being real selfish, but I just can't help it!
I knew I shouldnt have done wat I've done, but I just can't help it!
I knew you just wanna have fun, but I just can't help it!

My heart says "am I a burden? why aint I allow to go. I dont want him to have fun while I'm at home!"
(1st, yes I am indeed a burden. If i go, he will be looking after me. if i go, he will have to send me home halfway through cause I'll leave earlier than them all. even if i take my own transport back, he will have to send me to the taxi-stand. 2nd, its pure selfishness.)
My mind says "come on, he just wanna have fun. u got ur moments too!"
(my heart is much more powerful than my mind)

I have the weirdest dream yesterday night.
I have trying to call him, but its either engage or no one picks up.
I tried and tried. Finally, he picks up.
"hello, how come u never ans my phone?"
"erm... cos I just talking on the phone"
"oh alright, den i call u back later"
phone hangs.
few mintues later, I tried calling and the same thing happen
(either engage or no one picks up)
finally, some one picks up
but I suppose he pressed the wrong button and I can hear him talking to someone else (2nd line) "bye bye"
"ok bye bye"
how come its a girl ?! I thought.
thats all, and I woke up feeling like rotten egg.

how about, 8 out of 10 sentences reads clubbing clubbing clubbing
In the car: pop/R&B music starts playing through the radio, he starts dancing.
In the room: click youtube.com, search for pop/R&B songs and starts singing to it PLUS dancing
On the street, in the cinema, in foodcourts, while shopping, in restuarants (almost anywhere, anytime, anyday): randomly says things like "nevermind, wed I go ladies night." "during off, jio my bunkmates go supperclub, butterfactory (and the list goes on)."
I know I know he is just joking.

well, it is INDEED my fault yesterday
I kept him by my side but he still went for it
too late, queue too long, he has to leave.

I smsed him before bed to apologize
but he never reply...

2009-12-31T09:17:00.003+08:00

RECAP YEAR 2009

Jan:
Busy with poly's final year project.

Struggling with Business Development module project.

Feb:
End my last day of poly life.

March:
FIRST ever oversea trip with friends.
(went Genting with polymates)

second oversea trip with the same group of friends.
to Cruise, met sis and coll on board. went snorkeling together. best experience!)

April:
Start to face the cruel reality of looking for jobs.
(had a hard time doing so with Qiu)

May:
Finally started working at IAL.
(11th May)

Attended Singapore Poly's graduation.
(excited and touched)

June: -

July:
Transferred department
(from PDS-IAL to TS-IAL. I'll never ever regret this decision!)

Aug: -

Sep: -

Oct:
The day boyf weiyiao finally became a MAN
(made his first step into Tekong on 8th Oct)

Nov: -

Dec:
Thailand trip with papa's side relatives.
(Fell terribly sick. Vomited 4-5times on the 3rd day of our trip)

THE VERY BIG DAY! Sis's "THIS IS IT" wedding
(13th Dec. TOTALLY lost my voice on that day. Suffering from aftermath voice-lose effect up till today!)

Boyf weiyiao POP from Tekong, followed by 10+ days of leaves.
(and I missed the parade cause he only got two tickets)

Boyf weiyiao received his posting
(Khatib camp for the rest of his NS life)

2009-10-22T17:20:00.001+08:00

If missing you is suppose to be part of my life
then I would say my life is complete.

2009-10-13T17:40:00.002+08:00

I'm just afraid of changes

I used to mock at them too
But now I fully understand how they feel

For those who din went through it,
JUST SHUT UP

Its not pain
Its not sadness
Its just the hatred of changes

Like that also cannot ah?!

2009-10-09T15:16:00.005+08:00

Call me god.

I missed three days of work and still managed to
finish what is suppose to be done in these three days
in FIVE hours.

Call me god.

Anyway, am still missing my "Man".
he messaged me twice.
At 5:21am this morning and 1:19pm this afternoon.

Was really really glad. Thank god for giving me the chance to receive his message.
Totally brighten up my mood for that 2-3 mintues.

Today is friday.
My FIRST friday in the past 3 years, not meeting him.
YES. EVERY FRIDAY ever since 28 Aug 2006, I meet up with him.
Never fail. But no more. (Well, maybe we did skip a few. Haha. But we were quick enough to make it up the very next day - Sat.)
No more ringing him from my work station, asking him "Have u reach?"
No more dressing up for this happy friday, anticipating to have yet another date with him.
No more messaging him to discuss where to go later after work.
Friday means nothing much to me today.

Well, am looking forward to next friday though.
Cause he's coming out for the PH.

And lets just hope he gets to book out every friday night.
Atleast this way, friday still mean something to me.

I wonder how is he doing.
Can cope?
1030pm sleep, 530am wake.
When was the last time he did that.
Lets see... NEVER.
I bet it will take quite some time for him to adjust to this godly sleeping hours.

Heard from him that when he went for medical check up a year ago,
his waist was 35inch. and now, he slim down to 29inch.
Result in having a loose uniform, and thus received scoldings.
Wonder is everything ok.
Can take the tough training?
Anymore scolding?
Ok with the sleeping hours and food?
Ok with his bunk mates? (He was quite envy when he realised 2 of his friends were in another bunk, together)
Well, concern and company are probably all he needs to get through this tough period of NS (or maybe just these 2 months in Tekong).

Seems like my day revolve around waiting for his call and smses.
My HP cannot be out of my sight.
For fear that I might miss any calls or smses from him.
How pathetic right. Haha.

Just when I thought I would never be able to receive any Good Night messages from him anymore, he messaged me ytd before he sleep.
But I missed the golden chance to reply cause by the time I replied, its 3 mintues later and he has alr shut off his phone.
Thats how crucial time is.
So I would try my best not to let my HP be out of sight.

But never mind, I would still sms him.
And he can read it when he has time to switch on his phone.
I hope my messages can bring him hope and strength to survive through this tough period of adapting to NS life.

............................................

2009-10-08T18:41:00.002+08:00

Its not what you leave behind.
Its what you will gain ahead.

my Boy is now a grown up Man.

He is out there, preparing to protect the country.
Protect us.
Protect ME.

Life can never be the same again. (atleast for the next 2 years)
We grow up. We move on.

I dont want to sound emotional.
But you have got to understand, for the past 3 years, I can see him anytime I want.
I see him 3-4 times a week.
We sms every now and then. We hear each others' voice on the phone whenever we want to.

When I say life can never be the same again, its because
now (for the next 2years) I cant see him anytime I want. Meet him 3-4 times a week.
Receive his sms that often and hear his voice anytime I want.

I now he can survive through BMT. No worries.
Yes, its definitely not easy.
No more air-con.
No more gaming.
No more 2am-11am sleep time.
Simple as it is: NO MORE FREEDOM.
But if others can do it, so can Pang Wei Yiao.

If all other girlfriends can survive through these 2 year,
so can I.

I know its not easy for now, but I promise I will get used to it soon.

I MISS YOU MY DEAR.

the first night is always the toughest.
Applies to both me and you. But lets work hard together.
Jia you!

Most of the time, we learn to treasure
only when its gone.

I totally agree with it now.
In the past, I took him too much for granted.
I never for once realise, one day, I might not be able
to see and hear from him as and when I like.

Now, I will treasure every moment, every sec we meet
and every sms/phone calls I receive.
Every single one them is a gift from above.

161009, some time at night. Counting down.
181009 back to camp and straight 2 weeks bye-bye confinement week.
Some days around 23 oct, field trip. 6 days of TOTAL lost contact period.
How can I...
091209. I await this day where you can finally bid goodbye to Tekong. POP!
2 months cannot be that long, right?

2009-10-01T17:46:00.000+08:00

Fifth Avenue is BACK!

With a stronger collection this time round.

9th Collection - 1 Oct

www.5ave.blogspot.com

Collection includes fashion as seen on Japan Magazines!

And from her other collections:

www.5ave.blogspot.com

2009-09-15T20:46:00.003+08:00

All I need to know is that you're safe

I'm not a control freak
I'm only concern

Too much?
Hoping that I know every single details
Hoping I'm aware of your whereabouts

Don't tell me you understand
Cause if you do, why ain't you showing it
Don't tell me you're sorry
Cause if you are, why ain't no improvement

Is it that difficult
Just a few buttons away
Few minutes to spare the pain

Is it that hard
Or cause it never came across your mind at all

When I look at them, I know they just want to be together
Be it in the crowd or just them both
But for me?
Feeling so damn insecure
No affections, no passions.

I'm so tired of having to guess your emotions
I'm tired of always being the one to take initiatives

When all you need is strength, you would somehow, one day, used them up

I don't understand. Just don't understand
I ponder and wonder

Years after years

2009-09-09T09:51:00.002+08:00

Two things.

Today is my mum's birthday.
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY
I LOVE YOU!!!!!

And, boyf will be entering his new chapter of life in about 1month
(entering NS on Oct 8)
cannot/dont want to imagine the days without him

Know I sound abit dramatic
but ever since we were together (3years now), we meet each other about 4 times a week
and we speak on the phone/sms everyday

So I'm sure I will feel lonely and afraid without him
what more during his field trip where he will be uncontactable

So not sure if he can get use to NS life fast or not
He is so pampered by his life now

He's gonna learn to be strong n independent in Tekong
while I will also learn to be independent in Singapore main island ! Ha.

till then...

2009-09-07T14:00:00.003+08:00

Guess what.

I saw the exact same items on Fifth Avenue (http://www.5ave.blogspot.com/) selling at Far East, Cathay, Marina Sq and Cineleisure.

Well and of course, at more than double the price its selling at Fifth Avenue!

Am glad to see them hanging on racks in all this major shopping centres. Cause it goes to show that we (me and shan) the buyers, have good taste~ Haha.

And man, u gotta stop thinking that fame equals to fashionable, beautiful, chic and trendy.
Sometimes, some shops give you surprises!

Our item might not be what you see in Vogue magazines or those you see in Teens/Teenage magazines.

But there's only ONE reason. We don't follow the trend blindly.
And we try not to sell what every other blogshops are selling!

Girls, u gotta step out of the box.
The box which is stopping you from showing your personality.
Stop following the trend.

Yes, I admit I follow the trend once in a while.
But I always do it when lesser ppl are doing it already.

So I can stay fashionable yet not look like everyone else.

Am I saying a bit too much? Pardon me.

I mean no harm. Just my thoughts. Neither am I referring to anyone!

If u feel 'uneasy' after reading this post, I'm sorry.

2009-08-09T23:55:00.002+08:00

Tons and tons of photo

cool right.
Thanks papa

Happy National Day!

Did u realise I chopped my hair?
compare the above 3 photos.

Night Safari with boyf
used the 50% discount voucher from the NDP goody bag.

Try and spot the animals in all the pictures. HAHA

Lady GAGA inspired ribbon hair

IAL-workplace friend

NDP preview from esplanade.

DIY nail art

END

-still have more more photos. LAZY to upload -

2009-07-24T12:24:00.003+08:00

More on :
www.5ave.blogspot.com

2009-07-03T22:32:00.003+08:00

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first attempt to play table tennis (in singapore)

first time i played was in kukup
second time was in bintan

table tennis craze. hahahaha

just look at my cannot-stop-moving boyfriend.

I have to use a giant staple and pin him down before I can take the following pictures (only slightly better)

notice that his hand still cant stop moving
and notice that big red sign behind us
which reads 'no photo taking' ?
I reply 'heck'

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DIY nail art

i know its not fantastic

BUT !!!

if u cant do it, please say its nice
hahahaha

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my boy get a nice hair cut at 'It's Hairy'

I would say its super nice
well, I always like to see guys with this kinda hair style

But he say its sucks.

nevermind
our mindset are like the opposite poles

he was feeling awkward when these photos were taken

can see wat kinda hair style is that anot
neh~ its those where u shave the sides real real thin (till almost there is nothing)
and leave the hair un-touch at the top and back
and u spike the remaining hair slightly

some say it looks beng
i say it looks like xiao gui. hahaha

2009-06-28T12:04:00.004+08:00

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kite flying at pungol

looking at map. LOST

super duper dope new 'boots-wannabe-sandals'

rmb the dirt cheap polo from Bintan?
this is it

nice?

see how excited he was.
damn damn sunny with totally no wind

pungol is so so so wulu,
we basically just parked the car at the roadside
and obstruct nothing.

know its a little random.
But let me present to you:

My Beautiful Room ~

with my brand new tv!!! (burnt my pocket)

heart this full length mirror

bigger closet than last time
see my beautiful tv? love it =)

nicely deco wall (done by my creative sister)

my side of the cosy bed

270609 Aston follow by TRANSFORMER

so proud of myself
i used to score F in my art n craft lesson ok~
tell me its nice please

the boys are Q-ing

he is Danny Pang
I adore him. haha

Do I need to further introduce her?

I totally love the way I dressed ytd
I dont want to wear the same thing as wat eryother girl wears
nette says look like cosplay haha
and did u realise I just dye my hair? I love the color
do u?

from left: yong yi's girlf, the bimbo-est, the bimbo, ME, jingwen's girlf

next happening event:
4 July
damn damn looking forward/cant wait for it
having another get-together-session with all-time-fav polymates
gotta see the guys without
stay tune.

2009-06-25T10:19:00.002+08:00

I used to stare into Mars while on my way to work on the train

The only thing I would do is to stuck the ear pieces into my ears, wind the volume to full blast and start thinking how my life sucks

BUT IT’S DIFFERENT NOW!!!

Ever since I lay my eyes on it, I knew the journey will be different

Guess what.
Alright, if u know me well enough, you would probably not get it right.
Hahahaha.
Sounds weird cause it normally goes “if u know me well enough, you would get it right”

Ok lar, let me tell you…

I’m reading~!!!

Not magazine. BOOK!!!

I can totally count using my fingers (mind you, from only the left hand), the number of books I’ve read

1st. Harry Potter part 2 (I don’t even remember the full title)
2nd. House of sixty fathers (its my Lit text book)
3rd. Singapore Changi Prison (damn. Totally love this book. Read it thrice. Since u won’t be able to experience it, and probably wont want to experience it, u should read about it)
4th. I forgot the title but its published by the local Police Force, explaining how they crack all sorts of cases like murder or illegal drug transaction etc (very very interesting!!!!!!!!!!! go search for it in the national library!!!!!)
5th. Well, its this book I’m hooked onto now

(yea, so happy I can finally proceed the counts using fingers from my right hand after so many years)

Its call “What are you afraid of?”
Its short stories about phobias
(I guess my concentration and attention is only long enough for such short stories)

What are phobias?
To me, you can name certain fear "phobia" when u simply CANNOT explain why u’re so damn afraid of it.

I have lots of fear.
I’m afraid of cats, lizards, darkness, loneliness and the list goes on…

In the book, the author mentioned phobia for very very weird things which u probably wont understand why people are afraid of it

Like example: phobia for opening the door, phobia for concrete, phobia for strings, phobia for knifes and phobia for CATS!! (I guess that’s me)

In the chapter of phobia for cats, the author mentioned that she cant understand why would anyone be afraid of an ordinary house cat.
Well, if you hope to see an explanation here, sorry I’m so gonna disappoint you.

Cause I cant explain it as well. Its just unexplainable fear. So I name it phobia.

Do you have any phobia for anything? How do u go about conquering/overcoming the phobia?

2009-06-21T16:42:00.002+08:00

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Bintan Trip.

well... enjoyed myself =)

sis's jelly camera which takes very unique photos

see how cute my parents are. hahaha

fa cai chair. lol.
no idea why but dad name it fa cai yi
so we all took turn to sit on it and take photos. hahaha

I can drive. When I say I can drive, I mean I can drive
see!!!

a kitchen top
with damn lots of food
reminds me of those yan can cooks so can you kinda programme studio

for every villa resort, there is one private buggy
and ofcos we have ours.
so we drove drove and drove

the beach is sooooooo beautiful.
sand is so white, clean and soft
water is so clear!!!

see how excited my dad was. hahahaha

musical family

welcome to Bintan.

Pretty Ugly!!!

super er xin right.
spot the top right one
my parents are damn damn cute. hahahaha

evidence of how sister bully cousin ting ting

at Pasar Oleh Oleh.
someting like their town central
we did nail art. guess the price!!!
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S$15 !!!!!
no doubt. its S$15 !!!!
well, atleast I think its dirt cheap
when I told yun and qiu to guess the price, they said S$1 =/

we played pool and table tennis at the recreation centre

see see see!!! see how powerful my mum is!!! she said she was in the table tennis sch team last time. hahahaha

Pasar Oleh Oleh again (sorry, the photos aint in sequence)
we bought Polo Ralph for....
guess the price again
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S$29 !!!!!!!
please believe ur eyes!!
S$29 !!!!!!!
cause its manufactured in Indonesia itself
therefore no import fee etc
and there is 50% off
so its only S$29 !!!! =)

I totally forgot what we were laughing at
guess we were just excited abt the trip

there~ my S$15 nail art. nice?
Babi ones belong to sister
the girl who did it for her laughed when she saw what sis picked. hahaha
she looked at it and exclaimed 'Babi?! u like Babi?'

I love the beach
the nail art
the polo ralph
and the accompany

till next trip ~!!!

2009-06-07T11:42:00.007+08:00

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within the next few weeks
most of my friends from poly
will be entering into the next phrase of their life
national service
wont be seeing them for the next 2-3weeks
after which can only be meeting them once a week
say bye bye to those days that we see each other
almost everyday
or atleast,
say bye bye to those days which we can choose
to meet up almost everyday

so ytd, we organized a bye bye trip to sentosa
for denis, keong, stanley and jit (thou he din come for it)

I dunno about them but i totally enjoyed myself

qiu left earlier for Arena with another grp of friends
who are leaving for NS soon too

so here are the photos:

we always take this photo

he is happy n shy at the same time

i look ghostly

he looks like he has boobs
and look at the placement of his hand
reminds me of some aunty buying vege in the market saying
'aiyo, i buy vege, u give me free chill lar~'

we think its cool to act mysterious

EAT EAT EAT

one moment she is sleepy

the other moment she is happy

u realise how sunny it is?

well, the above two photos are taken from the photo booklet
qiu did for his boyf

looking happy with his gift

i love these girls ok

the new very-sticky-always-hugging lovebirds

I'm loving these girls

we had pizza for lunch. nice

he is totally covered with sand

for a moment I thought we're in genting again

the photos is blurry despite having flash on =/

and oh ya,
here are some videos taken.
but i dunno how to rotate them
so... watch it this way first, until i figure out how to rotate them k
btw, try guessing which music he is dancing to

well, thats all for now
ALL THE BEST MY FRIENDS
TAKE CARE !!!

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been working at IAL - Institute for Adult Learning
(near redhill mrt)
since 11th May till now

met this real nice temp staff there
Celine Liew
unfortunately, I'm there to replace her
so we only worked together for 3weeks
and she is gone
or else, working will be much more fun

the CEO's office

my working station

the girls sitting down is Esther
she is now my new friend in IAL
another temp who starts work on the same day as ME

thats all
my work contract will end at Aug 10
till then, wish me 'happy working' !!!

2009-06-03T15:36:00.002+08:00

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I faced my greatest fear in life.

I totally believe this is the nearest I can ever get to creature L.

Feeling sleepy, eyes still blurry
I open up the plastic bag to reach for my bread and guess who greeted me

A disgusting looking rubber-like creature!!
Yes, no other than uncle LIZARD!

Wat the fish!

Disgusting lizard, sitting on my bread
Right under my nose!
With two horrible looking eyes, staring at me~

My heart stops beating for two second
I fling the plastic as far as I could
Scream my head off
And dash back to my room
Jump onto my bed
And yes, start crying

Like it’s not pitiful enough,
Sis gave me a good scolding for waking her up =/

Can u imagine if I din notice it
And I actually take out the bread
And creature L landed on my hand
Or WORST !!! I bite off its head

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
DSGFDHSHJ#%*Y&E N%*TN)$*TV $%$^%W$V %&Q%#N DFHGJSR
DFER^%&*OYLP*&^#NKUO&(%^&Y#B%@#$ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I believe everything is here for a purpose
But wat are creatures L for?!?!?!

The only purpose I can think of is,
They are here to scare my hair out of it roots
Or to scare my heart out of my mouth

Yes, meaningless
Cause the presence of creatures L are also meaningless!

2009-05-27T21:26:00.003+08:00

I FINALLY GRADUATED FROM SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC!!

damn sad.
I really really miss those days...

what and how can I phrase it

those are probably the best years of my entire life so far

fun, laughter, fun, laughter, fun, laughter
ya, thats basically all.

anyway, PHOTOS!

With the end of this photo,
it marks the end of my poly life
or u can, the start of a new chapter in life =)

there are ofcos many more photos
all loaded/tagged in facebook!

Today, boyf surprised me by making a special appearance outside my office
to fetch me home n save me from the misery of squeezing in the MRT

I swear i was grinning from inside out =)

*Thanks darling*

2009-05-19T19:31:00.002+08:00

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Zirca followed by Arena

took these photos while waiting for Uncle Steven
to finish watching his soccer match
from outside ppl's pub

we were like being chase from pub to pub
but he wont give up
haha

I haven master the skill of taking
photos in the not-so-brightly-lit pubs

my gums came out to say 'hello'

she tot im only taking her hands haha

2009-04-30T13:49:00.003+08:00

...continued

from qiu's camera

while Q-ing.
everyone looking excited

one step nearer to ship

the place where we spent 2 nights

exploring my bed

qiu with her trillion dollar smile

thats my idiotic friend exploring his bed as well

I can sit up str while he cant!
hahaha

nice flash there qiu

so relaxing
i almost fell asleep

nice

idiotic

i'm atleast 178cm

"WOW! so nice!" <-- i must be saying this

dancing with the cartoon character in TV

I must say
"HORSE LEGS!"

enjoying our western food
but it serves SOOO slow
and we are all can't afford to miss the boat to Redang island
so we rushed thru the meal and skipped dessert =(

the following pictures
were taken at the other part of Redang island which I din went
cos I was at the other part of the island snorkelling

idiotic friend

qiu wants to say that the water is damn damn clear
ya, I agree

More More Tea
lol

he wish he is half as fit

thats Star Virgo

opening his mouth WIDE

finally a photo worth looking

WARNING!!!!
the next photo is not for the faint hearted
view at your own risk
I'll not be held responsible for any injury caused

READY?

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Relax.
cool down.
take a deep breathe.
everything alrite?

qiu says TWO
and I says ONE

I LOVE TRAVELLING!

2009-04-28T18:38:00.003+08:00

...continued

photos from Helen's camera
(after snorkelling)

kindly notice me n my sister's pose

beautifully edited by sister

2009-04-26T13:22:00.002+08:00

star virgo
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had a wonderful time
hope this is not the last trip

I so wanna go to taiwan/bangkok

nevermind
wait till I found a job
and receive my pay
saved up enough to go

Day 1

while queuing to go onboard
I was pretty excited
see my million dollar smile

one step closer to cruise

in our room
the room was so tiny
packed 4 people inside
there is hardly any space left
cause the whole room's floor was filled with shoes and slippers

inside of star virgo

we took tons of photos on the deck
it was SOOOOO bloody windy

please look carefully at these two pictures

tell me the view is nice nice nice
sunset

do u know who is who?

I can take photo using anything that reflects

stanley and his shy friend

behind the glass is where captain operates the HUGE cruise

Day 2

very end of the HUGE cruise
look at the tail of water

we decide to take some random and creative shots =)

stanley trying to prove that he has a full bum

in The Lido watching a Live show
very very interesting and enjoyable

more nice view

make a guess
sunrise or sunset

O ya
on Day 2
we alight the cruise at Redang island
and I went snorkelling with sister, her colleagues and stanley's shy friend

Swimming with the fishes!~

we all vote him for having the most
sunshine smile!

(so sorry, all the photos are not in the correct sequence. But there were all taken before and after snorkelling)

I still have tons of photos with qiuli
in my folder
and sister's folder
will upload them again when I have time
-to be continue-

2009-04-17T11:27:00.002+08:00

FARK

FCUK

FART

FAUT

the FIRST ting I open my eyes this morn

Father said 'how come u can eryday go out when ur frens alr working?'

He cont saying 'I can see u're not very serious in looking for jobs'

I remained cool and explained 'I send many resume out a day but no one call back wat can I do?'

Finally when he has nothing to say, he reply this 'dont tell me so much lar. I very busy. not interested to hear'

WTH

since u're not interested then why are u asking in the first place

WHY WHY WHY

in my family
as long as u're jobless
people look down on u
mock at u
or say nasty things about u

yes! I mean it
dont tell me the crap that
'no lar!~ they are ur parents, they wont do this to u'

FCUK!

to hell

they dont even care what job it is
they are more than just glad to see me
cleaning toilets or collect rubbish

its not that I look down on this jobs
but this jobs are not for me!

everyone has their requirement when looking for jobs right?
for me, its NO retail hours
issit really that hard nowadays?

PLEASE!
give me a job
so that I can have my pride back
and lift up my head in this family

yes, I do feel useless
being jobless and not being able to generate income

but I really really did send out alot alot of resume
I tried hard
no one can say I never try
PLEASE

if he cant seem to appreciate my effort
the very least he can do is SHUT UP
and keep those nasty comments to himself

after all, what nuts does he knows about the outside world now
no one knows
cause no one in my family is holding onto a bloody diploma cert and looking for a
job now!
since u're not in my position, means u cant fully understand my situation
so PLEASE SHUT UP

I wont give up
I will show to them
I CAN FIND BLOODY JOB!

2009-04-17T00:55:00.002+08:00

DAMN !

I so so so so so wanna go to taiwan again!

lets do a short re-cap

I really really miss the place
and I really really want to go back there again
cause I really really had damn lots of fun

2009-04-15T21:43:00.002+08:00

what else do I have to say about this

I screw it

Am I too doubtful of everyting and everyone?
What does it take to believe someone

Maybe I should keep my mouth shut for once

2009-04-09T00:58:00.003+08:00

I FINALLY WALKED DOG TODAY!!!

and I can see boyf likes it too

before we went for it
he cant stop complaing how troblesome it might be
cleaning up dog poo
stoping it from barking etc

but everything turns out well
the dog behaved itself
and boyf pretty enjoyed it
as much as I do =)

2009-04-06T22:54:00.002+08:00

my tummy almost burst !!!

went to enjoy the 1-for-1 treat at suntec swensen with stanley and qiu
3 of us ordered 4 main courses
damn damn full and I only paid 8bucks for it
great bargain

special thanks to my boyf
for sending me to tuition
and picking me up after tuition today
cause papa cant make it in time

I wonder when can I fulfill the dream of being my own boss
when can the idea of choco ball be launch in the market
nevermind

going for a freelance job briefing tomorrow
hope everything turns out well

2009-04-05T12:17:00.003+08:00

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3-leg mahjong with stanley and qiu
long long time no play mahjong with them
seriously miss the good old days
where we can meet up every day in school
haiiiiii

camera shy people

some of the stunts people do to get out of camera

he INSIST he never close his eyes
in the end I force him to open his eyes wide
and thus result in that idiot face haha

thats my biggest game ever
6 tai but only counted as 5 tai

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aimless meeting with yong han wei xiang and nette
roam around JP aimlessly
in the end, came over to west coast park
hang out n chat

we were chilling out in Coffee Bean
and I saw monkey ting ting
my thumbs up drink (the ultimate)
the thumbs down drink (boring hot tea - monkey ting ting's cup of tea)

we dont have can opener
so they were trying means n ways to open up the bottle
using keys, key chains
end up with injured fingers and damaged key chains
I was SMART enough to suggest using the lamp poles =)
otherwise I suppose we're still trying to open it up NOW haha

friendship of average 10 years
I wish nothing can drift us apart
[look at my eyes. I dont know what happen. I took alot of shots and it all turns out this way =( ]

Nice day out
till next time~

2009-04-02T16:39:00.004+08:00

I think all guys should read this
its an article extracted from the newspaper
I'm gonna translate it from Chinese to English
pardon me if I dont do a good job
just read, I will type it in such a way that everyone can understand =)

here goes:

"I'm so gonna break up with him! He doesn't love me at all! I wanted to have burger for dinner but he insisted on having ramen!"
This might sound stupid to most people. Its but just a dinner. How can it ever lead to a break up?!

We (females) are always complaining how mad and upset we are towards our partner.
Most complains include "why cant he understand the problem?"
and the only reason why is because guys are not able to see why such small things would make us so upset. Thus, its not easy for them to make changes.

In a relationship, we (females) are the ones who mention "break up" most frequently. Surprisingly, reasons being are not just because he has an affair, committed a crime or is being violent towards us. There are lots of other hidden reasons.

Nowadays, the reason for a broken relationship are always summarise as "unhappy relationship" which leads to "mental torture". And this "mental torture" happens when the other half neglect us, ain't understanding enough or lack of communication.

We can never understand why guys would choose to watch TV or game instead of chatting with us. Why guys cant bother to call and talk to us yet bother to chat with friends on msn. sometime despite knowing that she is upset, guys just can't lay down their pride and apologize sincerely/willingly.

after all, guys are just confused. "what exactly have I done wrong? or are they (females) are asking for more?" these questions pop up in a guy's mind very often.

well, guys can learn to understand us/know what we (females) are thinking as easy as snapping his finger if he wants to. There isn't a need for u (males) to change. All u have to do is to spend some time, understanding and responding to our complains/nagging and mood swings. Naturally, all this grumbles will disappear.

What we (females) really need is a guy who can be with us through ups and downs. be there when we need him. Put us into consideration when making decision and put in effort to really understand how we might feel by putting himself in our shoes. and a guy who really has that chemistry with us.

If a guy bother to put our feeling into consideration and let us feel that we are actually very important, we would definitely put ourselves in his shoes and think from his point of view, making things easier for him.

when both parties put each other in the top priority, they would be able to create a perfect relationship with love and compromise.

after all, be it burger or ramen. as long as the accompany is right, it will be a perfect meal regardless of the food.

2009-03-23T00:36:00.005+08:00

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kbox@clementi with yong han and wei xiang
"nette! where the hell are u?! =( "

choo yong han
he insisted he got open his eyes
u guys be a fair judge

his name is Saw Wei Xiang
and he likes to sing with his eyes close
or are they open? tiny eyes~

I seriously know these people
for more than 10years
and our friendship is still going strong

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pikachu aka big stan aka dog aka dog shit aka hairy's 20th bday celeb at Astons

queueing

still queueing

I'm sure his eyes were closed!

idiot face lol

u noe how bored it can get
when u stand there
doing nth for almost an hour
that results in the above photos

now... finally settled down in Astons

I duno why he looked so shock

hahahaha
jit was doing stun with my camera
refuse to press the button
keep on counting 1 2 3 repeatedly
and I suppose qiu cant stand it
just look at her face !!! lol

my chargrill chicken
with baked potato and house salad
nice

I think he was damn surprised

my clever idea
I tot he will have difficulty blowing out the candles
but its as easy as ABC for him

20 candles

took a min to remove the candles

look at the amount of wax

a group photo with jit missing

Happy 20th Birthday my dear friend

BY THE WAY
stanley went for a makeover photo shoot as his birthday treat
take a look at the result

magical right?
or does he looks familiar to u

well...
thats bcos this guy is Huai Chuai from Da Mouth

and we all cant help but think Stanley looks like him

what do u think?

anticipating
22th April for my cruise trip with the usual gang
and 13th June for the Bintan Resort trip with relatives

[unknown date]

he was thinking:
"hmm~ cookies. cant wait to eat it"

"but if I eat it is there anymore left"

"aiya dont care lar
haha cookies I'm gonna eat u"

"yum yum yum!!"

I love my boyf !!!
thou he is always eating
and simply REFUSE to look into the camera

2009-03-19T00:46:00.002+08:00

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semi 4D gathering =)

Its wasnt meant to be this way
meant to be only me, nette and yong han
but as we walk along the mall
we started to "collect" more and more people
thus form this 4D gathering

damn. my head looks huge beside hers

i LOVE this picture
cause we all have the same height !!!

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living courthouse

court of appeal

witnesses room

one row of judges seats

singapore's lawyers no longer wear wigs

and they do not dress this way

I forgot what is this
an important seat for an important person

2009-03-13T12:30:00.003+08:00

up till these days
this is the ONLY song that really touches me

I long for someone to dedicate each and every words
of the lyrics to me

Similarly, the lyrics totally said what I couldnt bring myself to say

I know I look stupid
like some secondary school students
being emo over love relationships

well...
there are of cause sentimental reasons for doing so

after all, this song
REALLY touches me
every single time I listen to this song
I would have this weird sour feeling in me

and I felt like I wrote this song
cause it TOTALLY describe what I wanna say
each and every words from the lyrics

2009-03-12T23:51:00.004+08:00

what should I say

I realise I've been turning to blog so often nowadays

anyway...
whats the point of doing it only after I requested and reminded u
it doesnt comes from within

It shouldnt be this way
now...
no matter what u do, I'd feel that
u did it bcos I asked for it

just put urself in my shoes
I hugged u bcos u requested for it
versus I hugged u without being told to do so
which one sounds better to u

I once said
its either I live with it or I let it go

now, I know very clearly my choice
I'd live with it
until the day it caused suffocation

but I still failed to understand why u choose to say
'Hi, wat u doing?'

isnt it a culture and tradition for couples to say
'Hi dear/darling/baby, wat u doing?'

have u ever told ur parther how much u love him/her
or probably just a simple 3 words phrase?

for me, I've never receive such 'gift'

some girls took the 3 magic words for granted
bcos their boyf showered her with the words everyday
but for me, I'm dying for it
its like a gift or say 'give' to me

I mean...
if u really love someone truely deeply
isnt it true that
u'd want to tell him/her how much u love her uncontrollably
isnt it true that
u'd uncontrollably tell him/her that 3 magic words

its the same for... say...
if u love a pair of jeans
u'd want to wear it for every occasion
its just as simple as that
uncontrollable

even if u're the shy-est person on earth
if u REALLY REALLY does love someone
I believe u'd let him/her know
cause u cant control urself
uncontrollable

and please dont tell me u'll change
changes are usually made unknowingly
changes that goes 'ok, I will change'
normally dont succeed

I think the worst part is to
pick up the phone
and sound like nothing happened

I hope he gets to read this
cause we dont have much time to really talk
so maybe he can understand better through this post

seems like there's an issue everyday, ya?
hahahaha

I'm fine
just need to let them out
then, I'd continue living with it

oh ya
I just realised something

u know what

I would stare or check my cellphone
very very often nowadays
hoping to see his name appear
like maybe a message
or even better, a missed call
if a message is a consolation, a missed call will be the grand prize

It totally felt like 3 things:

1. I'm in a one-sided r/s, waiting for him to reply my message/call
2. I'm secretly in loved with him, praying that god would make him send me a message/call
3. I just broke up with him, hoping he would change his mind and send me a message/call

I can still have this feelings
despite being in a almost 3-years r/s
amazing right?
hahahahaha

should I even be laughing?
I dont know
but nevermind
since I've chose to live with it
might as well laugh at it
right?

my email used to be stronger@hotmail.com
and it stands for strong+ger
a strong girl !!! =)

2009-03-12T16:38:00.002+08:00

I know I can't do it
I admit I can't do it
Everyone knows I can't do it
I'm sure u knew it too

maybe thats why u aint the slightest bit of worried

nevermind
I don't want to think about it for the time being

on a happier tone
ytd was my sister's 24th birthday
we went to marche
I had their steak
I'd prefer the one I had at Astons

2009-03-12T10:49:00.000+08:00

I'm sure its not just another fight this time

I had my worst night ever

I know its either I live with it
or let it go

Can't u sense that its different this time
do u even see the seriousness of it
or do u think its just another round of 'oh-come-on~'

what's with the gaga I dont know
and so fcuk that
so u weigh ur priority
and u chose to gaga it instead of lala with me

I still dont understand
maybe thats like how u feel
'I dont understand why are u so angry'

cause u dont give a damn?
cause u feel its not a problem?
cause u feel this is not an issue?

If there's a will, there's a way
say u miss me so
then why the hell

I slept while my cellphone is awake
I wanted to hear from u
but all I see was my wallpaper

I tried typing and all it take was 30 second
while walking down the street?
while in the bus?
while waiting for the bus?
I see there are plenty of chances
while in the toilet?
while having a meal?
I still think if there's a will, there's a way

not just work and gaga
how about when u game, when u gym
when u are so engrossed in your activites
and u totally think I'll be right here waiting

If u wanna let it go
just tell me so
cause I dont lala gaga fafa tata about it

yes, u dont understand lala gaga fafa tata
Me neither

Its just a form of expression
an expression that dont have to be made known to the whole world
an expression that dont have to be made clear

If I'm not important
If I'm not worth ur time and attention
just tell me so

I tried to let go
nobody can say I din
From your 'ok' I can also sense that u're trying to as well

once again, I'm very sure its not just any other fight
Its one that would take some time
cause its built up by a deep foundation

and this time round
Its seems like u're not with me anymore
your 'ok' shows it all

sometimes, I dont need words
All I need is an expression or even a tone
and I'd be able to understand
yes, I do

2009-03-06T14:30:00.006+08:00

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Genting Trip with Polymates

3 words to describe:
FUN FUN FUN!!!!!

on the bus to Genting
everyone so fresh, happy and excited

cause its the off peak season
we had a free upgrade to executive class for the bus
so our seats are massage chairs
seats are bloodly spacious
there is a personal TV with games and movies

he says he might puke!

personal porter

while waiting to check in First World Hotel

in the hotel
I rmb I was damn happy and excited

our 1st trip
Ripley's believe it or not

OPPS! i really din noe someone is inside

chair for the world tallest man

world tallest man's palm

I say HAHA

rmb seeing his chair and his palm?

this is wat u'll get if u use a totally different tie everyday for 30years

2nd trip, some laser maze
TOTALLY waste of money
I tot i can do some real cool stunt
like in those mission impossible movies
where u gotta flip, crawl, jump, fly over those red laser lines
who knows, the laser is so lousily light up
cause the room is so damn bright
and we totally cant figure out where the hell is the line
not to mention, the room is only the size of my bedroom plus toilet =/
we paid 10bucks for 3mins of entertainment

next, snow world
this is totally COOL and fun
-4 degree
we all had frost bite

buffet dinner
the soup, lamb chop and vege is nice hahaha

behind me is where we stayed for 2nights

I believe, if I keep trying...
one day I will be able to fly

2nd day
theme park

early in the morning 9am

can u spot me and yunxin?

my friends

I totally love this ride the most

They distribute shower caps for us to put on
before wearing the helmet
but we all doubt the shower cap is new
thats even more disgusting

someone must have thought that
having a huge pimple is not hurtful enough
he/she wants to show it to the whole world
or capture it in the photo to remind me of it (the huge pimple) for the rest of my lfie

sometime we love to pose

notice how misty the background is
real cold when that happens

maybe they saw superman flew past

archery. veri veri heavy
my arm ache for almost 2 days

my score board
better than my 1st attempt few years ago
I got 3 arrows in the bulleye ok!
look carefully

notice that one arrow way above the score board
and the one flat on the wall?
those belong to Chan Yun Xin
these two are not the most ridiculous ones
she has like almost 10 more arrows...
ON THE FLOOR!

my camera's battery went dead after this
so, rest of the photos are with yunxin and qiu
give me some time
i'm sure they will send me those photos =)

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SUPER DUPER belated 20th bday celeb
by lynette, emily and PT

special thanks to lynette and emily
for the beautiful ear rings
nice but ugly card
and delicious steak at Astons
its very nice of them

BUT BUT BUT! its totally evil of Lynette
to keep saying my dress look like a pyjamas
her dress looks like its her mum's lor ok!
lol
LYNETTE: girl, u better shut up! lol

my gift

thats all. bye bye! =)

2009-03-02T22:33:00.002+08:00

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finally meet up with her
just me and her

real donkey monkey years nv had our girls day out
unfortunately time constraint

we bought a similar pair of jeans-look-alike shots from cotton on
so looking forward to wear it tgt haha

oh ya, and for the first time in histroy
we watched a movie together haha
(ofcos I meant just me and her!)
we watched Hes Just Not That Into You
kinda draggy and not really that fantastic
haha

I must say, we never ever drift apart
well. maybe we did once in awhile
but we manage to narrow down the gap
whenever we meet

somehow, I feel that
no matter how long we din see each other
we can still talk about EVERYTHING under the sun, the earth n the moon
the moment we meet up

endless gossiping
never ending chit chatting

real nice to shop around with just me and her
cos we have kinda similar taste
so we can go for bargains which states
two for a certain price =)
and she would help me pick and give constructive suggestions
which I like people to do so
so ya, nice gossiping and shopping partner =)

and ofcos, this girl is no other than...

so well...
till next time =)

2009-03-01T13:34:00.003+08:00

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catch My Bloody Valentine 3D at The Cathay
I think its nice
I rate it 4/5
I like the 3D effect
its way better than bolt 3D
and the twist in storyline is well written

go go go catch the movie now!

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went to the Peranakan musuem

I twist my leg

typical peranakan (tp) family photo

what they wear on their wedding day

tp front door

tp living room

tp bedroom

if u watched the channel 8 most hype show of year 2008
u'd definitely noe what is this

and this

to be made into their shoes

"hello hello"

"yes, wei wei"

thats all.

2009-02-25T23:55:00.003+08:00

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LAST time take exam in SP liao
and its over!!
dont know to be sad or happy

anyway, after the paper
headed to town with frens

and guess wat we did

NEOPRINT!

the last time I did it was
seven or probably more than seven years ago!!

I think i fell in love with taking NEOPRINTS!

din noe its so fun
can decorate de
hahahha
i think some even provide wigs or props

yaya. I noe i sound like some cave women
but still ya,
I had fun taking neoprints hahaha

2009-02-20T00:15:00.002+08:00

oh! my birthday is over~

Jesmi 190209 2:21am
zikai 190209 2:41am
cousin ting ting 190209 8:51am
emily 190209 11:18am
wei hong 190209 11:29pm
cousin eric 190209 11:57am (on the tagboard. haha)
jit sheng 200209 12:21am
-end of greeting list-

(TO ERIC: oie! u forever late for erything. greetings u oso late~! lol)

boyf brought me to Night Safari for dinner
to celebrate my birthday ofcos =)

am real glad
happy happy girl !!!

hehehe. i did that
I scare he cold ma~
air con in his room is damn cold ok

I love dogs but mummy dont like =(

I want u to look at my lashes.
hahaha.

I love the coloured contact lens!! thanks jiejie!!

ok, i noe i'm a little zi lian here
but hey! its my birthday ma
allow me to be zi lian for once lar ok =)
tolerate with it for this once
no more next time hahaha

lazy bitch

night safari

the mandai road or mandai drive or sth
looks like malaysia road
long road, no cars, alot trees beside

my love. as usual, camera shy
refuse to look into the camera

his food. beef burger

mine. fish and chips

the super ex fruit punch ($10.90)

did u realise the table is black n white
the plate is the same
and even the two of us is dressed in black and white

BONGO Burgers. go try it. the food isnt that bad and is affordable.
except for the drinks I suppose
soft drink is 4bucks
and the ice tea cost 5bucks
issit just me
or is it really expensive

okok. I wasnt really drinking cos I was posing
but look at him!
he drinks and looked into the camera at the same time
how cute =)

after the dinner
caught the tribe performace
before heading home

thats the best I can take
with my lousy camera

Lastly, a big big THANKS for
all those who send me their wishes and gifts
it really feels great to receive so many wishes
esp from those long-time-never-contact friends =)
Thanks guys!!!
till next year~! hahahaha.

2009-02-18T23:34:00.008+08:00

Happy 20th birthday to me!!! =)

caiying 180209 11:10pm (on my tagboard haha)
nette 180209 11:24pm
keong 190209 12:00am
yunxin 190209 12:02am
trevor 190209 12:04am
nette again 190209 12:10am
qiuli 190209 12:24am
boyf 190209 12:29am
guan sheng 190209 12:49am
denis 190209 12:59am

170209
after the SM paper
yunxin, qiuli and caiying asked me out for dinner
I asked y din we ask the guys along
they say the guys are busy
so we made our way to swensen beside paragoon

I was puzzled why yunxin seems to be looking for something when she enter
only to realise that the guys are there
together with a ice-cream cake
DAMN! seriously touched to core!

after the dinner (oh, did I mention they pay for the meal too)
they took out a gift for me
YOOO HOOOO!!!!

MY BIRTHDAY GIFT
its B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L

I really must thanks all of them
especially YUNXIN and QIULI
for planning this whole thing
YX QIU if u're reading this
'I totally love u!!! thanks a million. I'll never forget this. I will bring this memory and friendship together with me until the day I lie in a wooden box ok!! THANKS!!'
and thanks
keong
cai ying
sulaiman
stanley and
denis for making the celebration a complete one =)

the rest of my presents

ang baos
by grandama, mummy's boss, papa and mummy

gift from sis
organic beauty product
and two pairs of coloured contact lens
(golden brown and green)

chomel hair clip by ting ting
pink rose, esprit bag n cake by aunt sally

180209
pre-celeb with family and relatives
at vivo Dian Xiao Er

thou this year's birthday is stuck in btw exams
thou mummy and sis is away to hong kong on 19th feb

but I received more wishes and presents than last year

not to forget the surprised party planned by yunxin and qiu
totally touched!!!!

thanks everyone!
I really had a HAPPY birthday =)

2009-02-15T16:53:00.002+08:00

I felt SOOOO unappreciated
and I'm SOOOO angry, pissed off
I could feel tears rolling down

these are tears of anger

no matter how much I try
no matter what I do
I still feel unappreciated

like I deserved all this
like I'm in the wrong
like I'm unreasonable

why issit when I know obviously I'm not in fault
yet, I'm still wondering if I'm wrong

how is this happening
why is this happening

do I deserve this?
do u really deserve what I gave u?

can someone please give me a piece of advice
can someone analysis it
and give me a clearer picture

Image putting your whole heart into it
and feel like u only receive one quarter of it back
I've never ever do something so whole heartedly before
ever before
so now I try and all I receive is failure?!

maybe to u, its really nothing
and u dont udst why am I kicking up such a big fuss
but please
if u dont udst, u never will
so just leave me alone
leave me alone to struggle
try not to drown
try not to let go
and continue believing what I believe will happen

I'm sure its not just beliefs
I'm sure it does exist
give me hope
even if its a one-sided effort
I dont mind doing it alone
I will stand strong
atleast show to me, prove to me, let me feel that
its all worth the effort

u're a man
u shouldnt have let this happen
nevermind nevermind

as u've said 'u wont understand'
yes indeed, I dont understand.

I dont want to be negative
so show me the opposite side
If one day I woke up
and all that I'm left to relay on
is the one I see in the mirror
it will be far more depressing for me to handle

throw the thinking away will u
throw that weird mentality behind your back
wake up
did u realise this will hinder the procession

lets proceed.
or rather, shall we proceed?

2009-02-15T02:18:00.004+08:00

140209

Val day!!

pardon me, u will see lots of our photos
its Val Day wat~
=)

TCC@keppel bay

boyf dont want to take photo with me =(

show me ur EYES baby

oh my. thats not the way to look up into the camera ya?
nevertheless C*T* !!!

not concentrating!

why that disgusted look
there is dog shit under my shoes or wat

smile forcefully

now let me present to u, keppel bay !

now, my boyf!

everyone got roses. be it fake or real.
guess wat I have
hand made rose!!
blue rose! (thou sis said it looks more like tulip)
hahaha. but who cares.
do u have hand made rose~

these are our footsteps
through a life journey (hopefully)

I love my boyf !!
p.s. thanks for a wonderful and memorable val day =)

2009-02-14T00:49:00.005+08:00

130209 eve of our 3rd val day

this year's val day gift
A photo book!

I hand made everything myself
from selection of pictures
editing
printing
buying all the materials needs
planning
process of making (that includes cutting sticking writting)
to finishing

consider that I always fail my art when I was in school,
this is already a piece of great,fantastic work

I was so excited to meet up with boyf today
I dress up a little more

my fav form of eye makeup

and I did a little something to my hair =)
I like it. boyf says its cute too!

we went for steamboat at bugis
before heading to marina barrage
since its somewhere new to us

whoever that told me marina barrage is gonna be the next fav hang out place for teenagers, go bang the wall
when someone mention 'hang out place'
I will immediately relate it to cine or esplanade
cause its accessible

marina barrage.
tell me how u can reach that place without a car
(please exclude cabs!)

I seriously have no idea what the hell is this
but I can tell u, the water flows like 1,000,000,000,000,000,000km per sec
and its sea water
can someone tell me whats happening
I was very amazed

marina barrage

next, we drove back to west coast mac
cause it was still early and I dont feel like going home yet

alright, thats all for today! =)
good night folks!

2009-02-13T15:10:00.006+08:00

long long long outdated photos

Reunion dinner at Sakura 240109

ofcourse sis wont give that sad, worried look for nth

Flower Fair@Sentosa 250109

Lunar New Year 260109-270109

1st day

my father knows tai chi

looking smart

elegant

my super duper hip popo

popo sure looks 20years younger with the wig!

oh ya, side track a little

mummy looks younger with her wig too!
the wig craze

usual gather-around-and-chat session

gong xi fa cai

dearest cousins from papa side of family

I thought my eyes look fake
but look at hers

2nd day

my oh-so-noisy cousin
but aint he cute~

3rd day I guess

=)

300109 class BBQ
probably the last =(

apple head

busy starting fire
this time round was much much much successful than the 1st time we had bbq

fan fan fan go stanley fan!

well, while the guys were busying cooking,
what can we girls do?
photo taking! =)

I have no idea why she gave that face
so I told her to smile nicely

stan "do I have to bend down?"
me "hey come on!"

someone has shaky hands~ once more

he might as well sit down right =/

sulaiman looking gay hahaha

I see food! but seriously, whats with the crowd

he lit it

pass the flame to jit

and there he goes

V is for victory

2009-02-13T12:32:00.004+08:00

2nd last and last time wearing formal in school
CSB interview and BD persentation

yeah~ we kinda changed out from our formals alr

050209
2nd last day of SP

she always give that weird expression

I took pictures of her cause I think she kinda dress up for the day
totally suits her

060209
LAST day of school =(

Ugly me

sweet

gaint and the pea?
(above pictures kindly sponsored by Yujin)

now, these are from my camera

'formal'

'informal'
my lovely classmates

my adorable girlfriends

ready to show some muscles

thats probably all what jitsheng can do

beauty and the beast

erm... how do I explain this. nevermind. the world has changed

she hug and box me at the same time

sexy butt. hahaha

ready~

GO! oppsy. too high

sulaiman climbed out for the window
and never comes back =(

locked outside

kiss me quick!

yeah!

I'm the ulimate winner

jumping onto him

=/ showing off again

stanley, go and die =)

nice expression there

see how weird is the r/s
me and yujing hugging
while i'm holding onto yunxin hand
while yunxin is being kissed by qiuli
a four way r/s

gentlemen, greet the ladies =)

pretty girl

ah keong is stuck

idiot

idiot-er

he said when he leaves the world, use this picture
so just in case next time I lost it
it will always be in this blog

together, we've walked thru
2years of poly life
we are all unaware of what we might face in future
but one thing i'm sure
we shall all be successful
and till then, keep in touch folks!
miss u guy

2009-02-08T00:58:00.002+08:00

070209

Done with my LAST presentation in SP

which also means I'm done with my FYP (Business Development)

thanks my group members
for the great work done
for the great effort put in
and finally for the great one year spent together =)

bye bye to them!

once again, thanks.

2009-02-05T15:14:00.000+08:00

I CANNOT BEAR TO LEAVE SINGAPORE POLY!!! =(
I DONT WANT TO SAY BYE BYE TO MY LOVELY FRIENDS!!! =(
I WANT MORE TIME TO HANG OUT AT FOODCOURT6!!! =(

I CANNNOT WAIT TO GO GENTING HIGHLAND WITH MY LOVELY FRIENDS!!!

2009-01-24T00:47:00.002+08:00

RANDOM PICTURES!

ah keong being emo

oh ya btw, these photos were taken on one particular day
i forgot which day but i rmb i brought the camera to sch
cause i felt that i need to do so
before we all leave SP =(

C cup dancing away

i hate this guy lar!
he is always gaming gyming
and is so into his ggf
well. atleast at this point of time, i hate him =(

lion dance performace by taiwan troupe
at paragoon duno which day

wh, zx, lynn birthday celeb on 170109
at bugis crystal jade
then to guan sheng house for mahjong

stunning performance
at westmall
i bet her legs can lift a elephant if she wants

doing FBM proj at stanley house

i like this particular proj
i think its fun-to-do

i saw this at chinatown
next time u passby this store
and u wanna have some herbal tea
just prove to them u noe me (huimin)

this was another day which i brought camera to sch
cause i seriously felt like taking some photos
for memory sake

my friends are damn hardworking

see how happy stan is smiling
he won big money!

i noe whats so juicy!!
blog reading~

i just realise stan seems to be staring at my dessert
and y is he sticking out his tongue. i dont know

this was the night view i saw through my room's window ytd night
i took alot but decide to just upload one

my hands were shaky so the pic is blur
but i can tell u, the night view was real real nice
i better start treasuring and appreciating it now

2009-01-14T20:17:00.002+08:00

130109

kbox@Cine with the singing peeps

ME!

why stanley so rude. people sing he sleep

what a distorted face =)

caiying so cute

for a moment I thought I saw LJJ

Denis is in the photo

suspicious guy. call 999

cannot see?

still cannot see?

there u go! for how long can u hide, qiu

can anyone figure out what he's singing?

damn! directing the ball somemore

please dont ask my why I threw so many piece of clothes on my body
(a cropped jacket, a long jacket and a cap)
cause its freaking cold in there!!!

side track abit

spot my boyf =)
I love guys in formal wears, NS uniform or any kind of smart looking uniform

2009-01-11T01:35:00.002+08:00

I finally know what's bothering me

Its the fact that u dont allow me to tag along with u
the fact that u feel I might be a burden
and hinder ur freedom to mingle with friends cause u have to entertain me
the fact that u feel I might be a burden
cause u would have to take care of me, look out for me and share a cab home with me instead of 3 other friends

or maybe bcos u're afraid ur friends wont like my pressence
maybe bcos its suppose to be a guys-night-out

or perhaps I'm selfish enough not to realise friends and girlf cant exist together
perhaps u just want some time to bond with friends
perhaps everyone should have their own personal space, and I should respect it

or probably its just PMS
which I doubt so

no matter what it is
I swear I wont let this happen again

2009-01-06T15:02:00.002+08:00

010109

woah. belated happy new year! =)

went to had dinner at jurong point
with gs wh lynn emily boyf zixiang

after which came home for countdown
with relatives =)

and the next day (new year day)
went to IMM for dim sum at crystal jade with relatives

its start of the year once again

at jurong point toilet

countdown at home
dis was taken at 010109 12.00am

dim sum at crystal jade

I wish everybody a smooth sailing year ahead! cheers to 2009

2008-12-26T12:53:00.005+08:00

241208

Xmas eve@Clarke Quay-Jab1

with nette,emily,weihong,guansheng,kokyan,desmond,tingle and boyf

I want chalet next year!

first round

I like this smile
I asked him to do it again but he just cant

taken by kokyan
guys have LOUSY photo taking skill lol

who stepped on tingle's feet

kokyan looks like a cooked lobster

kokyan is a cooked lobster

kokyan is ready to be served

nette gives a sexy stare lol

guansheng gives the evil hellboy look

they refused to sit closer

spot the difference

2nd round

Jab1 is DAMN noisy
cause its like a kbox+pub
people there dont sing. They SCREAM~!

tell me they look alike
NOT the one in red blue strip lar
the one in black and white

251208

Xmas dinner@my condo

with families =)

eat eat eat

He says he is not my jiefu

her name is tingting
the bitch name is gigi
lol

I think this photo is so funny
we told meimei
"christmas hat must wear lidat de. straight den nice"
so she went round straigtening people's hat
including his
look at his face!! lol

the bitch says "let me go! u're strangling me!"

santa popo =)

christmas is over
a new year is coming real soon

2008-12-24T13:44:00.003+08:00

241208

heyhey. Its christmas eve today!

where u guys going tonight?

nevermind. first of all
I cooked fried rice for me and papa's lunch today

great success!

there's egg, cabbage, carrot, chicken, hotdog and crabstick
yumyum

saliva dripping right~

oh ya. I wanna show ur the christmas gift I've recieved so far

thanks to all my gift givers! hahaha =)

MERRY CHRISTMAS

2008-12-22T23:58:00.002+08:00

** Everything written below aint against anyone or any incident **

GUYS
when was the last time u told u girlf she looks beauty
when was the last time u kiss your girlf bcause u really love her
when was the last time u hug your girlf bcause u could really feel the affection
when was the last time u planned a surprise for your girlf
when was the last time u look into her eyes and really see love in it
when was the last time u recall the reason u fall for her
when was the last time u told her you love her bcause u really feel so

some girls give no consideration at all
when their boyf spend money
either on them or on himself

either on meals, movies or gifts

while I always try all means n ways
to source for the next alternative

I even say no to gifts
no to movies
no to a better meal

I would say I've done my part as a girlf

2008-12-22T00:06:00.003+08:00

201208

joy@CafeDelMar

with yong han, wei xiang and nette

I seriously love these people
there are the ones whom I can really sit down
for hours and hours and hours
just chit chatting about every single thing under the sun

we order a glass each plus a jug of coke+whisky as punishment for the game
ofcourse we would love to lose
cause everyone wants to drink
hahaha. and my wish is granted. I drank almost half
sure worth the bucks paid
lol lol

oh. and I ordered cranberry+terquila (issit spell as terquila?) for my glass of drink

had a real nice time with them
looking forward to the next meeting already!

2008-12-17T23:44:00.002+08:00

171208

sushi buffet at The Cathay
next was Twilight at Plaza Singapura

isnt it cool if your boyf is a vampire

"VOOM" and u're back home
"VOOM" and u're at the top of a tree

but ofcos thats when he doesnt sucks ur blood

photos

1st attempt

2nd one

3rd. whats wrong with big stan

phew. like finally.

me and oink

chan pig pig and I

xin says I look shy in this photo
and I think my ear spells 'yikes'

big stan has a twisted face

keong gives a twisted face

they are forever not ready.
I gave up.

2008-12-16T13:29:00.002+08:00

151208

boyf brought me to suntec engwah for Bolt 3D

the tip of my ear and my nose bridge
was hurting after the show
cause the 3D spec is a little too heavy

but overall
was a wonderful show

ofcos u cant expect the 10bucks for 93mins
3D effect to be as fantastic as the
18bucks for 30mins 4D magix show at sentosa

but still, there is some 3D effect
and the storyline was nice

definitely worth that few bucks more =)

go catch it if you haven!

thats us with the heavy spec

2008-12-12T23:38:00.003+08:00

121208

Sister's big day
ROM@Peony-Jade Restaurant

me.
I love my dress.

thanks grandma
my FIRST diamond necklace
to complete my look =)

those are not our shoes
belong to my neighbour
I love my super fake eyelashes

ang bao giving ceremony

solemnisation
says 'I DO'

my papa is the witness

in-laws

bride's not ready

done!

my beautiful cousin ting ting
with the nicest hair clip u can ever find on mother earth =)

and I did my own nails

*thou we always quarrel, always argue, always fighting for the toilet but we've been living together for 20years. sharing the same room and bed, sharing secrets, bitching and gossiping before bed. tears, joy and worries. watching u say I Do, make me realise we've all grown up. no more teddy bears, no more barbie doll. its makeup, perfume and jewel now. Best wishes for the new journey that is awaiting the two of u. May a bright and happy future shower upon this newly-wed couple!*

2008-12-11T00:56:00.002+08:00

101208

seoul garden@Taka with polymates

start!

they are seriously camera shy

gottcha!

yalah. take together bu shi hao lor

ling x2

laugh wat laugh

us

us

qiu got stun look

ling: wat u doin?
me: peeling prawn skin

ling: I help u take noodle
me: dont want. I peeling prawn skin

ling: den nm lor. i eat.
me: I want but i peeling prawn skin
*ARGH!!! i've got pointy ear!!!! what happen?!?!*

still peeling
damn. my arms look scarly 'skin and bone' here
'nice job' photographer yunxin~

sorry.
peel until very tired and thirsty

yes finally peel finish

says YUMMY

yunxin want to tell us that she has pretty nails

cheers!

group photo

after which went shopping
with sis and cousin ting ting

me: head up abit

me: up a little more!

me: yes. thats better

till then. night folks! =)

2008-12-03T23:30:00.002+08:00

031208

fun@Sentosa

after the last paper
before going to sentosa

even a simple shades can bring laughter

qiuli is happy we are going to sentosa

the sparkling sea water is cooling
so we decide to bury Sulaiman

group photo

we went to enjoy Songs of the Sea FOC

and had Bens N Jerry

after which we went onboard the ship

Bon Voyage~

2008-12-01T00:51:00.000+08:00

I love these girls

2008-11-28T22:55:00.003+08:00

tell me she is pretty
and she has pretty eyes

and would like to do the same eye makeup as her

tell you he has a pair of soul-capturing eyes
and a nice hairstyle

and would like you to have the same hairstyle as him

2008-11-28T16:06:00.003+08:00

281108

We've been together for

27 months
810 days
19440 hours
1166400 mintues
69984000 seconds

------------------------------------------------------------
271108

Stanley wore his very best

he has a seashell selling wife selling seashell at the seashore and she decide to sit on the seesaw she saw at the seashore

2008-11-26T18:31:00.004+08:00

221108
BBQ at my house

rock on

food

no make up!

next, cups with names!

ah man

chan pig pig

little qiu

C cup

fall in siwmming pool =)

I did help ok

I dont know wat she doing. lol

pretty min!

I dont know wat he doing. lol

231108
goat farm, fruit farm with family

sis looked 'hot'

look! passion fruits

damn hot that day

winter melon

nice lunch at yacht club

261108
retail place fashion show

me and vicky at the talk

sulaiman

ex-boss zikai

saw them posing?

that me and zikai doing the double

that me in my full outfit
its the best qiuli can take

Mr nice smile

everyone involved in the walk

this was before I decide to change it into a thicker leather belt

cheers!

I love vicky's outfit

its SOOO warm in the shirt
I took it off immediately after the show
lol lol

photo taken for
the walk of SP pushcart
few months ago

2008-11-18T10:59:00.006+08:00

151108

boyf 19th birthday celebration

Noon to evening: sentosa for 4D magix show and luge plus skyride

Night to midnight (161108 - his actual birthday) : Eski bar at clarke quay
damn. we made our way to holland V
only to realise that outlet had closed down
for quite sometime already

pictures!

I'm in the mirror

long queue

let's pose with the coffee

We've got 4D eyes

Halloween craze still in the house

on his phone

luge plus skyride

we have to protect our heads

boyf is happy!

fail

fail

yup!

we're not afraid of height

Eski bar. mad coldness

3/11 of peeps

I wished him Happy Birthday

2008-11-12T20:46:00.002+08:00

121108

kbox @ Marina

FUN. I love to sing.

in class this morning

gottcha

everyone is camera shy

my girls
yunxin falling asleep

nice MV

sing me some "San Yue Li De Xiao Yu" dude

kbox guy: "wan to take a photo? instant develop free frame."
me: "alright, sure!"
*snap snap* photo taken
kbox guy: "how many pieces do you wan?"
me (thinking its free): "four, one for each."
kbox guy: "alright. 8bucks thank you."
-_-"

I surrender!

2008-11-11T20:18:00.002+08:00

111108

settler at clarke quay

busy setting up the games

those are not books. are games.
I still love uglydolls
I'm the master of that game =)

my darling girl
bang bang bang

caiying was sitting in front of us

settler peers

2008-11-01T13:37:00.004+08:00

311008

HALLOWEEN

hey guys
where did u normally go on halloween?

clubbing clubbing n clubbing?

time for some changes!

next year, make ur way to Night Safari!!!

p.s.
dont dont dont bother to spend 50bucks for the Halloween Cocktail Express
totally not worth it
u can just spend 32bucks and u'll take exactly the same route
except for having the chocolates

am all excited

super duper long queue
we queue for 1hour just to hop on the tram

the fat butcher behind you

yea, she sure has scary eyes

there are two types of tram
normal tram and the halloween tram
we took the 2nd type

as per usual, this tram will bring u to see the night animals
then unlike the normal tram, they will bring u to a place
call... gate of hell or sth
there u will see torture chamber, electric chairs etc
and there will be 'ghost' popping out from no where
to scare the hell out of you!!

dont u think this chinese vampire looks like
i'm taking a photo with boyf and he just appear without us knowing

see ya again next year, night safari !!!

2008-10-26T11:50:00.002+08:00

251008

met up with my all time fave buddies
wei xiang yong han lynette!

went to catch The Coffin

at the cathay
wow, ages since i last watch movie on sat
there was hell lots of people

I must say...
the movie aint nice

I still think house bunny is better
hahaha

some randome shots while waiting for the lift

yh giving a NS talk

Lynn says victory

the only group photo of the day
hahhaha.
cos it was taken in the lift
and there isnt much space for me to stretch my hand ok

after the movie, made our way to boat quay
went into mind cafe
my 1st visit

n I totally love it

maybe if u're shy, u shouldnt make ur way there
cos u will end up feeling real real bored

anyway, pictures

oya!
before that yh went to adidas
and had a makeover done
=)

from this

to this

I think the 'after' was much better
hhahaha

alrite, finally we arrived at mind cafe

us again

lynn act shy
yh act emo
hahhaa

I sucks in this game

this game real fun!!

this hurts cos its sth like SNAP

our drinks n tibits

the package we took up was
$12/pax for 2hours
inclusive of one drink n one tibit

wei xiang: hey. so fun right
yong han: yalo. must come again next time

a wonderful day! =)

I'm very conservative

2008-10-24T22:04:00.007+08:00

yea yea
hasnt been blogging right

thats cause I wanna collect lots of random stuff
before posting them up here all at once =)

so there u go,
all the random events

first:

last weekend
did cupcakes with sister
had lots of fun decorating the mini cakes
and we spend the whole afternoon doing it
hahaha

all the cupcakes
I decorated those smaller ones
while sis did the others

my creation =)
ugly I noe
but its my style lar~ cannot meh

I did this
I wanted it to look like a snake

it IS a snake lar
thou I noe it resemble a pile of SHIT

second:

boyf's birthday coming soon!!!!
16th nov
hahahhaa
far it may seem
but its only about 3weeks

during my lunchbreak ytd
saw this good deal
and how could I miss it ?!?!

FCUK perfume with body and hair wash

and there's miniature!

good deal. so bought it for boyf.
gave it to him today
and he said 'but its not my birthday! so early!?'
lol

planned to treat him to a one day sentosa tour package
but i suppose the rainy season is coming
hmmmm...
wonder how should I celeb it for him
can someone throw me some ideas?
greatly appreciated!

third:

went to town with boyf today after school

we were wandering about aimlessly
and happens to see this kinda
HELLO KITTY fair in taka

damn. how could i miss it
SOOOOO many interesting HK stuff
from pencil to pots and pans!!
u name it, they have it.
am serious

and if u're a HK fan
make ur way there
u wont be disappointed

so.....
I saw this marshmallow cushion

have u ever seen HK winking and a tiny heart shape at the side of her face?

WOW. its so damn nice
I couldnt get my eyes of it

picked it up, DAMN-ER!!
it feels so soft and hug-able

thou it says SALE but it cost $49.90
I could totally feel my heart sinking all the way to my big fat toe
just as I was able to let it go
boyf say he will get it for me

YEA!!!!

now I can sleep with a HK marshmallow cushion
like FINALLY

fourth:

am glad I participated in the fashion show

I totally want to have some fun and memorable events
before say bye bye, farewell to SP

look wat I bought from them

so nice and oh-so cheap
cause I got special discount~

oya, my darling lynette did the walk too!
she looks stunning that day =)

I wore one of these for the walk.
guess which
hahaha

fifth:

its ripe time!

PAPA with PAPAYA

no~ we din bought this from some supermarkets

instead, we PLUCK it from our own sweet little garden!!!

wanna see the talented farmer?

dont u dare think its not ripe
once u spot this tiny little orange dot on the fruit
it actually shouting out to u 'HEY!!! pluck me pluck me! I'm allllll ready~'

just get it down from the tree,
leave it in the kitchen for about 3days

and YEAH!!!
papaya milk?
papaya juice?
papaya fruit!

like its not random enough,
I wanna tell u guys one more thing before I go

tomorrow,
I'm meeting up with my beloved pri sch mates again!!!!
yeah!!!
I suppose it means, another fun day!

and and !!
boyf is away clubbing now

and and and !!
i L.O.V.E my poly classmates
people like...
qiuli (the dessert shop)
yunxin (mary had a little lamb)
stanely (definitely giorgio armani fake)
jit sheng (jolin dance queen)
denis (lets play tennis)
sulaiman (speak some french)
yujin (party girl)
cai ying (big laughter)
kok keong (ah keong guo qiang)

they definitely make my day
and they are the reasons why I love going to school

alright, thats all.
wow. a long post

good night folks!

2008-10-16T20:46:00.002+08:00

131008

first day of school
last semester
4 more months to go
and I will be saying good bye to my poly life

I seriously will miss the good old days
and the group of friends
whom are the only reason why I go to school

anyway, on the first day of sch
during our THREE hour of breaks
we headed down to bugis

and have a short celebration
for qiu's 19th bday (2th oct)
and jit's 20th bday (21st oct)

photos

think I dont need to introduce
the above two pretty ladies right

stanley ate 4 baked mussels

denis had ice cream brownie

bday boy ordered waffle ice cream

I dont noe why they dont want to have a proper meal
but I had a nice share of grilled BBQ chicken

nice!

cake blowing ceremony

I ask them to 'make a wish'
and they must have mistaken it as
'do some praying'

they claim to be blowing out the candles
but explain to me why all of the candles
are still burning strongly ??

no, they are not kissing =)

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY~!

151008

met up with lynette and emily after school
went to had POPEYES at SG flyer
before making our way to marina sqaure

I totally enjoy spending time with them

especially when we can talk about everything
under the sun

from gossiping abt the girl with no backbone
to which part of the school ghost appear
to where people jump off building
to serious matter such as death of relatives
to ofcos, all the past memories and days we spend together
from seconday school till now

totally LOVE LOVE LOVE these girls

cant cant cant wait to meet up with them again =)

2008-10-07T01:03:00.001+08:00

was reading emily's blog, saw this
and notice my name written in ques 17.

yayaya. it wasnt meant to be passed on

but i was bored
so i did it

here it goes

1. Your relationship with him/her (emily) is?

school/classmates aka friend since sec sch

2. Your five impression of him/her?

'bimbo' haha. sweet. soft spoken. easy going. caring.

3. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?

sorry. I suffer from short term memory since the time i've memory

4.The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?

'who say I dun like him. I like him. for quite sometime somemore.'

5.What kind of guy/girl he/she like?

mature. humorous. I think.

6.If he/she becomes your lover, you will?

she is already my lover =) I love her.

7. If he/she becomes your lover, the thing he/she has to improve on will be:

learn to eat the same amount of food as me

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will:

snatch ALL her food and make her suffer from hunger =)

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:

she finish all my food. hahahaha

10. The most desired thing that you want to do for him/her now is?

celeb her bday for her

11. Your overall impression of him/her is?

independent. loves eating, hahahaha. hardworking. smart. lovely =)

12. How do you think people around you will feel about you?:

I guess... naggy like an aunty. talk loud loud, laugh loud loud. straight forward. not fun. this is what i think. maybe u can let me noe personally =)

13. The characters you love of yourself are:

I say whatever is on my mind. thou I noe ppl hates me for this.

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are:

my super bad temper n heck-care character

15. The most ideal person you want to be is:

more independent, street smart, successful business woman, rich, pretty, loved by EVERYBODY! =)

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:

I love u too !! =)

17. Pass this Quiz to 10 people. ( do not need to pass on)

1) weiyiao
2) lynette
3) yunxin
4) qiuli
5) weixiang
6) emily
7) yong han
8) jesmi
9) wei hong
10) stanley

18. Who is no.6 having relationship with?

me! =)

19. Is no.9 a male or female?

he appear to be a male lar. but who knows right. anything is possible =)

20. If no.7 and 8 are together, will it be a good thing?
hahahaha. YES~

22. What is no.2 studying about?

accounting

23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3 ?

chatting now on msn

24. What kind of music band does no.8 like?

erm... duno

25. Does no.1 have any siblings?

yes. two elder sister

26. Will you woo no.3 ?

definitely if I'm a guy

27. How about no.7 ?

nope. I prefer guys with smaller head. hahahaa.

28. Is no.4 single?

yup.

29. What is the surname of no.5 ?

Saw

30. What's the hobby of no.4?

shopping?

31. Does no.5 and 9 get along well?

still ok ba. they used to be classmates after all

32)where is no.2 studying at?

SP

33. Talk something casually about no.1?

He is my boyfriend =)

34. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8 ?

nope.

35. Where does no.9 live at?

somewhere near jurong point

36. What colour does no.4 like?

hmmmmmm... blue?

37. Are no.5 and 1 best friends?

no. ex classmates only

38. Does no.7 like no.2 ?

hard to say. hahaha

39. How do you get to know no.2 ?

I know her since pri sch through another friend

40. Does no.1 have any pets?

yes~ winnie the bitch =)

41. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?

unless u think having a huge head turns u on. then maybe yes

42. Is no.10 tall?

skinny yet fit and yes, tall.

2008-09-29T12:11:00.005+08:00

my uncle left us
forever

hopefully to a place
where he dont have to suffer from
the sickness anymore

hopefully rebirth
to lead a new, better, healtier, happier life

for a moment I thought

why do we live?

after all, at the end
we become a bottle of ash
and leave tons of pain for the living ones

may he rest in peace

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250908 - 260908

river taxi from clark quay to SG flyer
walk-all-u-can F1 viewing with bf

we caught the F1 practicing
I video it down but cant upload here
dont noe why

so nm
photos =)

long queue
took us about 20mins

thats the boat

us while waiting

I really love him

photo taken on boat

nice reflection

thats fulleton hotel

we went under the F1 track

esplanade

reaching SG flyer soon

I just think this photo is nice

F1 track along the SG flyer

we got real close with the track

thats the police car lar
but they can speed real real fast as well

we even get to have a 'feel' of sitting on the F1 viewing seats
hahahahha
no fish, prawn also good ma~

good~

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290908

yong han booked out ytd
so we met up today

his head sure looks smaller =)

but before that,
I want show ur some horrifying pictures

its not for children below 16

view at ur own risk

there u go

lynette and ME

ME and wei xiang

ME, huan jie and wei xiang

all the above was taken at lynette house
about 6-7 years ago?

one word to describe me
PRETTY =)
ok lar. ugly
plain ugly

look at this

wei xiang doing his power range moves

okok.
so today we had ramem at marina sq

nice.

YH Choo

WX Saw

my food.
nice! I finished everything

dont ask me why u dont see lynette in the photos
cos she was damn damn late
so we started eating without her

BOTAK CHOO!

after lunch we walk around
went to The Cathay
and they forced me to watch Mirrors with them
but well, since they pay for it
I dont mind watching it the 2nd time
hahahaha

after movie
went to had dinner
and dou hua

den we surprised wei xiang with a tiny tiramisu
cos it was his birthday ytd

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI XIANG !

he was touched =)

group photo

at the end of the day
we all queue up to touch YH Choo's head
cos we believe we will all HUAT AH!!!
after touching his head
hahahahha

after which
shared cab home
and thats all for the day
hope to meet up with all of them again soon !!! =)

2008-09-25T15:05:00.002+08:00

240908

met up with qiu
headed towards town for some shopping
bought a lovely skirt from cotton on
at an incredible price

next meet up with the rest of them
and went to lau pa sat for dinner

yun qiu stanley keong jit n ME
DENIS WAS ABSENCE

after which
we started walking to clarke quay
and it takes us a bloody 1 whole hour
from 8pm-9pm!!!

and we finally settled in an indian pub
hahaha

the theme lar I mean
we were so tired, we din care much
should have went to the hospital themed pub just next door
and order the drip

so we ordered our drinks,
played 5 10 15 20
and headed home around 1015

a short yet cosy day =)

photos

we had this plus 20 stick of satay
for only 43bucks!
oh. plus drinks for about 10bucks
total of 50+bucks only~

at the pub
we took almost 30 shots lar
most of the time our eyes were either closed
or half open
cos the light inside was so dim
i have to on full flash light
eyes almost turned blind

our cosy corner

the guys

the followings are failed attempt

(taken by chan yunxin. she did these on purpose lar! )

wats with that twisted face

our drinks
qiu - sex on the beach
yun- mango magarita or sth lidat
me - volka lime
jit - singapore sling
keong - blue lagoon
stanley - orange juice. hahahahaha. ok, its orange sth sth. but it totally taste like orange juice =)

girls' all time fave shots
taken in toilet
cos they always have the just-nice lighting

yun needs help in looking into the camera
hahahaha

qiu needs help in smiling
hahahaha

stupid white spot on my hair
do it again

qiu finally came out from the cubicle

group photo
we are soooo black and white
can someone add colours to us

spot who?

fake L
p.s. stanley please stop using the V sign

2008-09-21T13:23:00.002+08:00

190908

gathering with
nicole the taiwanese
lynette the gossip queen
emily the bimbo
and jesmi the long-time-no-see

hasnt seen nicole n jesmi for
donkey years

met up with emily n lynette 1st
had our lunch at Azabu sabo

den met up with nicole n jesmi

proceed to my house
for some chit chat
gossip
girls talk
catch up session

a simple yet wonderful day =)

yum yum

emily's special form of prayers

lynette's food
she cant eat cause she just pull out her wisdom tooth
poor girl~

damn. my head looks huge

5 of us

the joy n sorrow we shared during sec sch
incredible
it still feels the same that day

I love these girls
really.

200908

went to suntec
for the game exhibition

then to expo
for the car exhibition

no.
I din take ANY photos of the car girls
nor am I happy when bf
keeps staring at them, searching for the sight of them
=)

show ur some photos of the
game exhibition first

evil twin bro of hulk?

characters from a game

my fav
crab head from half life

naruto!

he did this outfit all by himself !!

I think he looks like housefly
hahaha

from gai bang?

star wars

hero needs some entertainment too ok
they cant be fighting all year long right
so... they end up playing WII

L killed zhen zi using....
his feet ??? or his death note ???

next, car exhibition
I repeat. NO photos of car girls ok =)
guys, only photos of car!

one word for this exhibition

SUT

bf's dream car
GTR

beautiful
there's bling on the mirror
notice ?

another
beautiful creation

W.O.W

Lambo
I call it the
Flying Without Wings

this was taken during the drift show
I got rubber all over my face
rubber n smoke smell cant get off my nose after that
damn bloody unhealty show
hahaha

2008-09-17T00:05:00.003+08:00

150908

pri sch gathering plus
farewall for yong han
cause he entered NS the next day
which is today 160908

driver of the day
mr koh hong lun

picked us up one by one
then send us home one after one

thank you la hor!

in car, very excited for the day to get started

(taken by weixiang lo. so damn blur)

yong han treated us all
for sushi buffet at The Cathay

I think its damn nice
n way better than sakae sushi

next went to party world
to rock the world with our fantastic singing =)

in our 8 years of friendship
this is the 2nd time I heard her singing

BYE BYE YONG HAN
take care while in camp

then to dempsy hill or issit demspy hill
for BnJ ice cream

had a real fun
enjoyable
full of laughter
day

cant wait to meet up with them again
hopefully 2 weeks later
when yong han is allow to book out
wanna see if his head gets bigger, without a strand of hair
ha ha ha

2008-09-14T23:46:00.003+08:00

140908 mooncake festival
celebration at uncle house

me, sis, jie-fu did this together

cousin yang wei

papa mummy having fun too

good night =)
pri sch gathering tmr.

2008-09-11T01:23:00.001+08:00

peer pressure =(

2008-09-10T22:07:00.002+08:00

100908

I had the nicest dinner tonight

guess wat he cooking

my all time fav steak!

egg with onion

=) choco stick with ice cream

everything is soooo nice
I mean it
its nice
1st attempt ok

see!!
even winnie is drooling

2008-09-07T23:43:00.002+08:00

060908

My popo's 70 years old birthday celeb

me, sis and ting wear our best
cheong sam

enjoyable night
popo was real happy
grinning from left ear to right ear =)

My dearest popo

lao fo ye, wan sui wan sui wan wan sui !!!

70

singing birthday song
see how happy my popo is smiling
only can see one row of teeth
hahaha

everybody busy preparing the cake

popo's four children

popo's children + in-laws

popo's grandchildren

popo's didi n his wife

ang bao giving

my present for popo
a Bonia coin pouch

Popo I LOVE YOU! =)

070908

mummy's pre-bday celeb

in car on our way to chinatown

mummy I LOVE YOU !!
thou sometimes she really piss me off
but nm =)

before that went to a museum
that museum used to be a temple
long long long long long long years of history

taken by sister

outside the restaurant

inside while waiting for the food to be served

two of the dishes we had
nice food
good quality service =)

papa mummy

mummy with the watch I gave her as her birthday gift

ya. thats all. bye bye =)

2008-09-02T12:12:00.003+08:00

SIAN

2008-09-02T11:51:00.003+08:00

010908

East Coast cycling with
yun, denis, stanley n keong

nice and fun day =)

my darling girl

cycle cycle
din see keong rite
hahahahaha...

while waiting for keong
we decide to climb up this duno-call-wat

returned the bic at 5pm
den went to have a few rounds of pool
while yun me n keong had some fun too

keong sure sweat alot
see, I score more than him =)
I'm the only one who got 153points among us 3 ok~
hahahahaha. proud.

finally, went parkway parade for pastamina

taken by yun darling

2008-09-01T00:04:00.002+08:00

300808

sien wei's farewell dinner
she going to germany for study exchange
will be staying over there for abt 6months
damn envy her lo

went to M.O.F at bugis
dont really think the food is fantastic
the service was kinda down too

bla~

finally saw lynette
donkey years since last met up with her

she flew over to hong kong as well this morn
1week, study tour

hope to meet up more with her
after she comes back from the tour

for more catch up =)
after all, its 8years of friendship
I really dun want nor can I afford to waste it

pictures time!

on the way to meet them
first attempt
bf escaped

there u go =)

lynette

sien wei

she trying to take photos of the menu
I wanna do it too

=)

mine.
chicken char siew ramen
and salmon salad

lynette real happy with her food

yan kiat......
saying prayers/smelling his food/cant wait to eat ??
I duno. haha

'swee. food finally comes. wahahahah. thumb up!'

bf with his seafood duno wat.
I love the way he always try to escape from the camera
but never succeed
hahahaha...

ex school mates

WEI HONG WAKE UP !!!

damn my ugly stick out, U-shaped hair

2008-08-29T00:22:00.004+08:00

280808

our 2nd year anniversary
we've been together for
24 months
104 weeks
728 days
17472 hours
1048320 mintues
62899200 seconds

yet I still love him
madly truely deeply

thou sometimes I feel real insecure
I feel we aint compatible

but I still learn to put it all behind me
and make thru it with happier moments

He doesnt tell me how much he loves me
doesnt hug me during photos-taking

He seldom plan for
gifts to be given
or outings

I really wish that one day
he would bring me a huge bouquet of blue roses
bring me to the beach
sit down with me
wrap his arm around my shoulder
so that I could lean my head against his shoulder
maybe watch the sunrise
or just enjoy the breeze, music of the sea
and listen to him telling me how much he loves me
and promise me tons of sweet nothing

I knew he cant do it
cause he is shy
and shy,
thats what makes me fall for him in the first place

BUT !! BUT !!

he never fail to
make me laugh
make me smile
make me happy by compromising with my nonsense
make feel like falling asleep in his arm
make me feel like hugging him
make me feel like clinging onto his arm

I love him

yes, I do

but the more I love him
the more I expect him to do the same for me

like when I hug him once
I want him to hug me twice

after all, I'm a Pisces

dependent
seek for romance
love to day-dream
sensitive
insecure
easily affected by people's mood

Pictures time!

went to IT fair at suntec
I think people take leaves
to visit the fair

its only abt 1230pm
the fair opens at 12pm

lunch at Marina Square, Azabu Sabo

looking out for ice-cream
sweet tooth

mine. I think its nice

what he is waiting for. hahaha

walk around after lunch and suddenly!!!!

hulk. hunk. ?????

new york new york for dinner

gottcha!!!

us. I hope the smile will never disappear
[darling, I really love u. and,]

[thank you =) ]

2008-08-25T00:17:00.005+08:00

issit the mindset

I feel that my thinking is very 'old generation'

look at this

I think its just plain stupid
to spend money on this

I mean, so what if u've the best set
so what if u deco the whole layout
until it looks like a real damn car

it still brings u to nowhere

so what if u are the champion
so what if u can drift like Jay in Initial D

its just a game

its the real things which matters
isnt it?!

I have nothing against people who bought that set

just feel that the sum of money
can be put into better use

I mean no harm

alright, on a happier tone

my bf was damn nice the other day
friday 22aug

we planned to catch the firework together that night
we meet in the late afternoon and shop ard 1st

thru out the day, he kept saying and asking things like
later firework I wan to sit down watch
later we buy food go watch firework

den I was like

cant sit down la, alot ppl
buy food for wat, stand n watch some more squeeze with other people

den finally when we reached there
he surprise me with two tickets la!!

tickets to watch the firework at the floating platform

heheheheh

no need squeeze with people
can sit down comfortably
can watch the whole full performance

it was damn bloody nice
the nicest firework I ever seen

but the way back was terrible

human jam
traffic jam

met up wth bf's sis who was there too
called a cab back to his house first
before sending me back

show u some photos
but I din took much
cos I really want to concentrate on the firework la
dun wanna miss out anyting

hahaha.

24 Aug

was raining cats and dogs the whole day

bf picked me up
went to his house
study together

ate some of his mummy cook food
and went out to botak jones
had lamp chop
home sweet home

3 more days to the end of my misery~

2008-08-12T17:25:00.001+08:00

I just can't forget it.

2008-08-11T00:42:00.003+08:00

090808 43rd National Day

went science centre early in the morn
with mummy papa
aunt sally and monkey ting ting

after which went over to ting ting house
and had a family gathering
with all other aunty uncle n popo

play mahjong
sing karaoke
eat fruits

had a simple yet relaxing day =)

100808 SG flyer

*To YunXin: SINGAPORE FLYER~ haha*

bf was dying to ride on the SG flyer

had been asking for it since fri
so we decided to go today

30mins ride

nice view up there

including us,
there are only like 12 ppl inside the cabin
while some other seems to have abt 20 riders
so we are able to enjoy the beautiful scenery in peace

after which, we had our dinner at thai express
and home sweet home

love meeting up with bf
love when he talks n joke

*thanks for the ride my dear*

happy couple

the F1 viewing platform (red n yellow in color) and F1 track
the place where bf and i once sat on abt a week ago
(the floating platform)
they are moving the platform away
so sad

see all the cranes beside the highway?
casino n IR will be somewhere there

I got to view the sky in a different angle today

had a enjoyable n happy day

2008-08-03T23:12:00.002+08:00

020808 NDP Preview

We went in at 3pm
We sat there from 3pm to 545pm
before the show starts
2h45min
under the big huge enormous bright sunny strong sun
I almost died
and I mean it

but never mind
its all worth for
once the show starts
we were so close to the stage and the river
we can catch all performance very clearly

really enjoyed myself
=)

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!

2008-07-29T00:12:00.002+08:00

photos up for the Garden Festival

2008-07-27T21:41:00.003+08:00

260708

went to the Singapore Garden Festival
at suntec city
with bf and his family

beautiful flowers
beautiful displays made of flowers

photos up soon

270708

06:15pm

bf fetch me from clementi to his house
bf send me home from his house
via car =)

1st time after he pass his driving test
about a week ago

280708

1year 11th month anniversary

2008-07-20T14:23:00.003+08:00

120708

My NDP preview's preview photos

they flew RIGHT AHEAD my head

LOVE

NDP'08

B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L

He is trying to smile

160708

Yun's 19th bday celebration
at Marina Square kbox

In lecture hall
NO. Stanley is NOT showing his middle finger.
Its a V for Victory sign

Mr bla bla bla!

Qiu and Stanley went bowling
cause we're 30mins earlier

S is Stanley
D is Qiu
obviously stanley is the big loser =)

laugh laugh laugh
joke joke joke
sing sing sing
fun fun fun

bday girl =)

2008-07-12T23:14:00.002+08:00

exactly same activity as last saturday

went bugis to have our fav steamboat
this time round was much more worth it
ate damn lots

after that, walked over to esplanade
to catch my all time fav
FIREWORK
and airplane show

I call dis activity
My NDP Preview's Preview

photo up later!

2008-07-02T22:23:00.002+08:00

sister says 'one letter'
papa says 'one and a half la'
mummy says 'give her two la'

and I din disappoint myself
I show them FOUR!

28/06/08 1yr 10mths gift for bf

I aint a art & craft person

when I was young
I bought a cross stich
suppose to sew two ducks
by the end of 5 years, one duck head
hahahahaha...

I took 1week to get this four letters done
I bet he is TOUCH!

All worth it =)

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HELLO KITTY BREAD!

2008-07-02T20:29:00.002+08:00

What we usually do in class

chatting
posing

shoes fixing

attempt to take a photo

The reason why I go to sch

I love my friends

me and ah man
qiu looking blur
me posing alone cos everyone else ran away
ah man artistic photo (spot me!)

2008-06-29T11:45:00.003+08:00

sis went to choose her wedding gown ytd
n I was invited along to help out =/
my index finger turns red n swollen
due to all the zip zipping
damn difficult to zip !!!!!

the gown there was nice
but not too unique
sis said, a unique gown can cost up to $5k
and its just the gown itself
not the whole package

show ur some pic of the gown sis tried

2008-06-28T00:47:00.005+08:00

I Love Pang Wei Yiao

Then

Now

I Love These Girls

Then

Now

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was looking thru all the old photos
and realise i look like a aunty with that hair
but i love the way bf looks in the photo

people say

ten years down the road,
its hard to recognize a female
but a male will always look the same

tink i have to agree with this statement

see

Then

Now

i tink i look diff
while bf looks the same

its oni less than a year

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I want to change that main picture on my blog.
But i'm so damn lazy to do so.
and someone give me a kick so that i can get it done asap?

thank you =)

2008-06-27T00:16:00.002+08:00

Imagine.

You
cant feel his warm arm wrapping around u
cant feel his lips pressing against ur forehead
cant hear him telling u how much he loves u
cant see his big bright smile
cant lock ur fingers with his

how terrible will it be to lose ur bf for good

how terrible will it be if ur bf vanish from this earth

how scary will it be to face rest of the days alone

how scary will it be to even think abt it

treasure him.
even thou he might at times
make u feel like biting him
make u feel like ignoring him
make u feel like screaming at him
make u feel like u've made the wrong choice

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Lau Pat Sa

had a splendid dinner with bf just now
at Lau Pat Sa
BBQ stingray
Kang Kong
Satay

he said 'this is the first time we order dishes and eat together'

yes, and it feels good.
i dont know why

after our tummy is filled with food
we decide to talk a walk
from SG river to esplanade
we started walking
and guess wat.
we end up at Tanjong Pagar =/
so we walked back n finally find our way
to the river

saw the NDP rehearsal

cant wait for 2nd Aug =)